The struggle to sleep was real last night and I got about three hours to run on if that. The lack of sleep mixed with homesickness also caused for me to be very emotionally unstable throughout the day. Literally LITERALLY thinking of home versus here led me to start bawling and an unconcealed cracking in my voice. Not even my period has led me to this grief. Flor and I had two breakfasts. One at the regular time and another "special" one with our dorm family. The dorm family one consisted of us eating while school people talked to us about Job Corps and advice and whatnot. Spent majority of the time in the wellness center today. We took a TB test. Easy peasy. We had this super chill dentist do a quick look in our mouths. I'm good she said! Then was the urine test. I get in there but don't have to pee ... so she send me to get my blood work first instead. All in an instant the urge to pee myself (in fear) came. I got my blood work done. The RN doing our blood work was very chill and pro too, the whole team was! It took her a while to find a good vein because I guess I have super thin ones. I'm a "little girl" they said lol but she found the one so I can avoid even more dread of having to have her go at my veins in my hands instead. It didn't hurt but I know she had to dig deep and it took a bit to fill her two vials. I was looking away clenching my nose in fear with my free hand. After that i went to the waiting room where I got the honor of getting closer to my "input brothers" and watching them play jenga. It was actually entertaining. I had to talk about my medical history and then finally do the urine test which was kind of awkward peeing into a cup but ok better than giving blood. After all that we got sent to get our uniforms and my God are they horrid, but i did get to peak at the black scrubs I get to wear for Pharm Tech!
I also had a guy tell me I'm cute and he's going to try to get my number and "holla at me" Two days and I'm dealing with this. When walking back to the dorms I came from the back and noticed someone in my dorm room window. I obviously knew it was most likely my "awhole" roomie I never met so I hopped in our window and joyfully yell "hey girl I'm your roommate!!" Probably scared her but she was real nice about it. I get to put dorm and introduce myself and she introduces herself. She's really nice and clean which is great. She's in the CNA vocation. She's taking her time which is great but also bums me out since I was low key hoping she'd be gone soon so Flor could move into my dorm. Luckily she's great so far and very clean which is nice. She also has a thing for open windows and turning fans on no matter how cold which I LOVE❤️ It keeps fresh air in the dorm and so far from what I've noticed seeing other people's dorms we are the only dorm that isn't stuffy and musty smelling or cluttered. Instead it's organized and smells nice and just great. Hence why no offense to my amazing roomie but if I were to move in a room with Flor I'd rather it be my room and not hers or a new one. During meeting the roomie I ended up getting emotional again. Crystal and broken sobs. Flor went somewhere and still feeling a little awkward to stay in a room with someone I just met I went to the lounge. I texted my mom
I sent the good majority of these in the lounge and true to my word, I was silently tearing up once more. Trying to conceal it in a room full of TV entertainment seeking ladies. Someone noticed and she was kind enough to talk to me and ask me how I'm doing without out right asking why I'm crying. Instead she asked me how I liked living in the dorms, the classes, etc. Flor miraculously came back right in time to save the day and I went in her room for my bigger breakdown and called my mom practically begging to go back home. After the phone call, Flor being a "witch" asked if I wanted a tarot reading. I said yeah she made me pick out a stone. "To absorb my energy" and told me my past present and future card.
Surprisingly her reading was spot on! I ended up going back to the lounge to watch black ink crew and went to bed fairly earlyish. Like 10.
day two.
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